So… I broke up with Tyler… My boyfriend of like, nearly three years. And I’m so… lost. I barely even know why I did it anymore; all I can think about is how much I want to be with him. Hell, I would marry him.Even with the distance and the barely talking and the never seeing each other… I knew I had him and I knew he was there for me if I needed him… And now it’s like I don’t even have that…

And I probably shouldn’t be listening to Sarah McLachlan’s “I Will Remember You” and “Angel” over and over again in this situation, but I am.

My mom says we’re each other’s first real loves and we’ll probably still be friends for a long while because that’s just how we are. That and it wasn’t a bad ending, just an incredibly sad one.  I haven’t talked to him since we broke up, but he’s more on my mind than ever before now. If things had been different… If we could see each other more often… We would’ve been fine. We both know it; he said it himself. I can’t help but wish there was a way to fix this because God knows I don’t want it to end. I just can’t think of a way.

And now I feel like I’m losing my mind. Does anyone know if tylenol works for heartaches?